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What if the life you worked so hard to build isn’t the one you actually want?The steady career. The plan that checks the boxes. The path everyone said you were “supposed” to follow. On paper, it all looks fine — but inside, it feels like something is missing.F*ck Your Life UP is a podcast about what happens next: burning down the version of life that doesn’t fit, and building something braver, freer, and more your own.We call it life flipping — stepping off the script, trusting the chaos, and daring to create a version of your life that finally feels right.
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You can do everything right — build the career, the home, the story that looks perfect from the outside — and still feel the quiet craving for something more.We know, because we’ve been there. Careers that looked steady and “successful.” Lives that checked every box. Paths we thought we were supposed to follow. It all worked… until it didn’t.This podcast is for anyone who has ever felt that quiet nudge in the back of their mind — the one whispering that it’s time for a change.We’ll share our own messy pivots in real time, and we’ll bring in experts — from coaches to money minds to mental health pros — to help all of us navigate the hurdles that come with starting over. And we’ll talk with other people who’ve had the guts to start over too. Entrepreneurs, dreamers, experts, and everyday rebels who prove that reinvention isn’t just possible… it’s necessary.We’re here to make the leap feel a little less terrifying, to remind you that life-flippers are never as alone as they think, and to give you tools for the road ahead.
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Samantha Derman
Growing up in Orange County, California, Samantha’s parents always told her she could be anything she wanted if she worked hard. She took that to heart and chased her dream of becoming a zookeeper, a career she dedicated 20 years to. After giving everything mentally, physically, and emotionally—and trying to adapt to the mounting stress—she reached a breaking point. Retiring from her dream job was far from easy, but with the support of friends and family, a solid retirement, and the spark of a podcast dream, the leap felt a little less f*ing scary.
Katie Daryl
Katie Daryl is a music television executive and host known for her rockstar interviews, quick wit, creativity, and deep industry ties. At Mark Cuban’s AXS TV, she spent 20+ years leading programming and development, working directly with iconic artists from Sammy Hagar to Heart and partnering with brands like Fender and Gibson. Whether green-lighting hit shows, interviewing rock legends, or building new creative ventures, Katie’s experience at MTV, VH1, TMZ and more brings the perfect mix of expertise, energy, and passion for all ventures.
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Crystal Ferris
Crystal has never been afraid to flip the script. She started out as a stem cell scientist with a degree in neurobiology, then spent almost a decade teaching and leading in science education. Along the way she launched an online wine shop (because, why not?), and when her first daughter was born, she walked away from the classroom to buy a mommy-and-me fitness franchise. These days, she’s reinvented herself again as a full-time Realtor and the owner of Studio Type A, a creative design and investment studio. Through every pivot, Crystal has chased her curiosity, leaned into risk, and built a life on her own terms—which is exactly the spirit she brings to the podcast.
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